Letter to an ex

I want to text you but you’re arrogant. I want to text you but you’ll make me feel like shit for the past. I want to text you but I don’t need the drama. I want to text you but you’re not worth my sanity. I want to text you but you’re a drug and I’d be relapsing. I want to text you but you’ll probably ignore me. I want to text you but you’re probably busy avoiding accountability for your emotional healing. I want to text you but you’d probably become attached again. I want to text you but I don’t need my already-apologized-for mistakes relitigated. I want to text you but I don’t need anything from you.