to my mother - you have hurt me so much even though i tried to give you a good life. there were a lot of things that you did where i should have already left and live with dad, but i chose to stay with you. you manipulated me into believing that papa hurt you physically, that he didn't have a dream that's why you left. i believed you, yes, that's why i allowed you to be happy with another man - making sure that papa or his family doesn't find out. you said you were doing it for me. like really? you left scars so deep that now that i am old, i have to go through therapy because you've been treating me like shit ever since. now that we are apart, just the thought of you talking bad behind me makes me anxious. i tried to explain your narcissism to our family - some didn't believe and just said that that's who you are, not realising that they are causing me more damage for not believing my mental health issues that i took my life last week, luckily, my husband found me before i did something irreversible. i love you still but i hate what you are doing and the lingering effects it had on me. i have to heal so i can still take good care of you.